Disarray

Think this over
If you don't it's going to take me under
When I can't afford to be a step down from anyone
That I've ever been

I've known for a while now
This inhibition has got a hold of my every move
It makes me want to step down from everything
I've been trying to be

Disarray, disarray let the disorder come
Just like in California, where I'm from, I'm from
And say like everyone
You know its in me
So tell me why I always disagree, disagree

Doing nothing
Has just as many consequences
I'm sure you know
But failing is the one thing above it all
That drives us away

Its my personality
I know you know it
Do you know what you mean to me
And did you know that you're the one thing above it all
But now you're going away

Disarray, disarray let the disorder come
Just like in California, where I'm from, I'm from
And say like everyone
You know its in me
So tell me why I always disagree, disagree

My Albatross

I didn't see it no I didn't even open the door
I just walked on by too quick to recognize
Since then I've concluded that I'm legally blind
I don't wanna trust my own eyes

And if and when I choose to see
I'll be facing the responsibility
Of knowing but not divulging

Such a clever fraud but where's your camouflage
There goes your legacy, here comes my albatross

I'll never tell, no I wouldn't even fancy the thought
I'll just let it slide who knows how many times
My god its a miracle we've even survived
Under the gravity of your lies

And if I had the nerve to squeal
It'd induce in you a monstrous upheaval
And it'd consume us all oh no

Such a clever fraud but where's your camouflage
There goes your legacy here comes my albatross
You're not a clever fraud without your camouflage
There goes your legacy here comes my albatross

And if and when I choose to see
I'll be facing the responsibility
Of knowing but not divulging

And if I had the nerve to squeal
It'd induce in you a monstrous upheaval
And it'd consume us all oh no

Is this the legacy that you wanna leave
Tell me why I should believe
What they've taught me to believe
You're not a clever fraud
Without your camouflage
There goes your legacy
Here comes my albatross

Train Wreck

Sitting still on this sad song uncomfortable ride
Is pain enough to make the out of place passenger try
To jump the train while it still moves, still moves

Every mile down this one was street is a bust
No where to go but back around again
I keep on looking for a u-turn, u-turn

It controls the air flow
That feeds our soul
And nothing else no

Breath in, believe in
Something else
Not someone

Giving in to the sole end of being a crutch
Scares me enough about the sad place I'm being dragged
It's time to stand up on your own feet, own feet

Every discussion is a sad song heated exchange
Ringing in circles in my ears now I'm certain to quit
It should happen in the first place first place

It controls the air flow
That feeds our soul
And nothing else no

Breath in, believe in
Something else
Not someone

It can't be what you want
No we'll never be
It won't be what you want no, want no
We'll never be what you want no, want no x2

Window Shopping

I'm gonna stay up past two
And mend the cracks in the room
With anything that fills the space
Cause I don't wanna leave here for anyone

Maybe I'll go Window Shopping instead
Cause I don't wanna spend a dime
No I won't let them take me for everything

Cause if there's one thing that I've learned
These partitions tend to give
And always come caving in over me

So when the plaster crumbles
And the cracks reopen
I can take my leave
Without an exit strategy

Someday I'll change
I know all this will change
I could only go so long
Loneliness is bound to catch up with me

Until then I'll wait
Learn from all my mistakes
Drawing from a new design
Where everything in right were it's supposed to be

So when the plaster crumbles
And the cracks reopen
I can take my leave
Without an exit strategy x2

If there's one thing that I've learned
These partitions tend to give
And they always come caving in over me
But I've built it from the ground so who knows

When the plaster crumbles
And the cracks reopen
I can take my leave
Without an exit strategy x2

QUIET REVOLUTION

I walk these lonely streets
Night after night
Don't need no company
Cuz I ain't feeling right
Maybe she was mad at me
Or was she mad at the world
All I know is I'm alone
And I miss that girl

I'm having a quiet revolution
Inside my head
And there's no way to kill the pain
No use trying to raise the dead
Here in my confusion
I seek absolution
In my quiet revolution

I should be moving on
Set myself free
But I can't let go of her
And she won't let go of me
Maybe someday the sun will shine
And clouds will disappear
Until that day has come and gone)
I'll still be here

Having a quiet revolution
Inside my head
And there's no way to kill the pain
No use trying to raise the dead
Here in my confusion
I seek absolution

A BETTER WAY

Everything I knew is now a question in my mind
I'm watching pieces of me fade away
All my points of view are from another place and time
My dreams have come and gone, but that's okay

I think I can see a better way for me
Maybe I can get it right this time
Nothing is for sure, but that's okay for me
I'll be fine, yeah I'll be fine

Where are all the heroes that I thought could save the day
A comic book of friends that didn't last
Maybe I'll do better if I turn and walk away
Leaving clouds of trouble in the past

I think I can see a better way for me
Maybe I can get it right this time
Nothing is for sure, but that's okay for me
I'll be fine, yeah I'll be fine

They say I'll fall on my face
Well I might stumble, that's okay
But I think I have found a better way

I think I can see a better way for me
Maybe I can get it right this time
Nothing is for sure, but that's okay for me
I'll be fine, yeah I'll be fine

I think I can see a better way for me
Maybe I can get it right this time
Nothing is for sure, but that's okay for me
I'll be fine, yeah I'll be fine

Prasoid

Seven in the morning, on a Monday
I've been up since Sunday Evening
Everybody's drinking caffeine
Reading papers, braving freeways
But I can't say the same for me
And everyone keeps hinting that I'm damned if I do change
I'll be washing windows for a living
Soon enough they say
For now that's good enough for me

I said, escape with me to places I've been
Inside my head
And we'll stray, well beyond the paths that they've laid
And find out way

I'll tell you how it happened just a year or so ago
She told me on a Sunday evening
I was up till Monday's dawn
It's never been the same for me
The catalyst is missing, this experiments a bust
And all the scientists are guessing
But their estimation's wrong
They'll never find a cure for me

I said, escape with me to places I've been
Inside my head
And we'll stray, well beyond the paths that they've laid
And with it erase our fondest memories
I can't remember the last time I felt like doing anything

Each day, every day yields the same result for me

I find the one who wants the same things I want
To clear a way for me
Who's not afraid to leave it all behind just once
And take a chance on me

Sunset Terrace

Does anyone know the place
Where trouble ends and love begins?
She used to take me there somehow
Does anyone understand
How much I need her here with me?
It's too late, she's gone away
To Sunset Terrace now

Under a paper moon
A blackbird sings out of tune
As wolves dance around the room
She signs the will, she takes a pill
And she smiles.

She always tried to find
The pleasure trapped inside my pain
From her every kiss felt like a vow
I never understood
Why she'd want any part of me
It's too late, she's gone away
To Sunset Terrace now

Under the plastic sun
A carnival has begun
When rain scorches everyone
It's a perfect day
Your head and heart melt away

Under electric stars
Songs play a black guitar
Adrift in a junkyard car
You're all alone
Hang up the phone now and drive.

Does anyone know the place
Where trouble ends and love begins
She used to take me there somehow
Does anyone understand
How much I need her here with me?
It's too late, she's gone away
To Sunset Terrace now

Familiar Feeling

I've had this picture of her
Etched on the inside of my skull
And she keeps on staring back at me
Through some enchanted portal

And no change could ease my longing
No words could sway my schemes
Every diversion feels like wasted time on lesser things

And you all wanna shoot me down
Shoot me down before I run with it

This familiar feeling
Yah its one in a million
You say its ridiculous
I say it could be too

I've had to keep this image
Of her so brash and cold
You'd think she's already deceased
That way I'd let her go

But no ghost has been so lively
No apparition's ever made
Someone so green with envy
That they'd make the same mistake

And you all wanna shoot me down
Shoot me down before I run with it

This familiar feeling
Yah its one in a million
How's it ridiculous if its coming true
Like a case reopen, for further consideration
I had the lifelong sentence but the facts were skewed

You all wanna shoot me down, shoot me down before I run with it x4

This familiar feeling
Yah its one in a million
Tell me how its ridiculous I said it
Tell me how its ridiculous I said it
Oh its a case reopen
For further consideration
You say its ridiculous I say it could be too

HAPPY LIFE

I got a house in the country
Three cars in the stall
My girlfriend she loves me
Yeah she's no trouble at all
But I, I ain't satisfied, no

Got lots of money in my pocket
Everything's goin' right
I know I really can't complain
'Cuz my future's looking bright
But I....'m never satisfied

Is there something wrong with me?
Maybe something's wrong with me
There must be something wrong with me
To feel the way I do

Everyone wants to live a happy life
Everyone wants to live, yeah a happy life
Everyone wants to live a life
Where nothing comes and goes too fast
The good times always last and last and last

I hang out with the best crowd
Hang between the lines
People ask me how I am
I say I'm doin' fine
But I, I ain't satisfied, no no

Is there something wrong with me?
Maybe something's wrong with me
There must be something wrong with me
To feel the way I do

Everyone wants to live a happy life
Everyone wants to live, yeah a happy life
Everyone wants to live a life
Where nothing comes and goes too fast
The good times always last and last and last

Na, na, na, na
A Happy Life
Na, na, na, yeah
A Happy Life
Oooo
Yeah, a happy, happy life

Everyone wants to live a happy life
Everyone needs to live a happy life
Everyone wants to live a life
Where nothing comes and goes too fast
The good times always last and last

Dead Poet

With all the broken windows and testimonies
You're the last thing that we need
Making senseless noises, over several passes
Hurling insults on the lawn
Literally

Another incident in too short a time
We're still the victims of the same disposition
With too much to learn, but not enough to prove
You're both desperate for a scapegoat
Within your reach

Cause there's no doubt to shed
On this positive description
The defense can rest

To say you're insecure, it's an understatement
I'm ashamed to say I'm scared
But you're the dangerous kind with that growing impulse
To take it out on someone
Come and chase us till you find us
Block us off, now we're surrounded
What's the reason? What's the purpose?
I don't care

Cause there's no doubt to shed
On this positive description
The defense can rest
We're done with you
Are you done with me too?

Why can't you agree just to disagree
It's always your way
If I don't agree, if I disagree
It's just the wrong way
No one wants to be around you
They want to think their own way

Cause there's no doubt to shed
On this positive description
The defense can rest
We're done with you
Are you done with me too?

Better Things

Everywhere you go no matter who you see she's still enticing
She's going to toy with your heart just like a boy on a string
Cause it's exciting

And now you're dying here
You should know why

You're only walking backwards when all you have is right in front of you
Yah it's difficult, sometimes impossible but it's the only thing you can do

It's time to leave it here, go somewhere else
But I don't blame you; you want to keep it here all for yourself

It's not as perfect as you think, so trade it in for better things
You doing so much for yourself so leave her tricks for someone else
To deal with, we're all in the same boat sinking, sinking, sinking
But it's not going down; no we're not going down

It's time to leave it here
No I don't care what they think
I'm going to leave her here for better things

I used to walk so tall
Laughing and running straight at the sun
I liked the burn
I used to think so small
I sowed the wild and grew from a child
Just to learn

I could lie forever, sleep through my season in the sun
I feel the ticking of the clocks and
I won't miss my time at all

You used to think so small
Doubting the ones who brought you here
Until you learned
Now you stand so tall
Laughing and running next to the sun
You hug the turns

I could lie forever, sleep through my season in the sun
Hope you shatter every record
I will miss you most of all
Lie forever, sleep through 'til my season ends
I will miss you, I will miss you

Lowest light, highest of speed
How you spend your time
Don't like my speed
Simply lost your mind

Moving faster still
And now we're

Behind the wheel
She's loving him madly
And at her heels
He's driving her gladly
Away from here now

Let me drown faith into you
Wouldn't you
Let me pound faith into you
Shouldn't you

Moving faster still
And now we're

Behind the wheel
She's loving him madly
And at her heels
He's driving her gladly
Away from here now

Away from here
Away from here

Something To Believe In

How do you know
When there's something missing
Where do you look
When you don't know what you're looking for
I don't know why I even try to fill this empty feeling
I need a sign to help me find the open door
Because I know there must be more
Chorus:
I'm searching for something to believe in
I'm dreaming everything that's lost will be found
I'm searching for something to believe in
And someday I'll find my way and turn this all around
Ohhh ohhh ohhh
When is it time
To move ahead or give it up
Why do I care
Is it everything they say it is
Inside my mind the more I try
The world is so confusing
I need a sign to help me find the way it is
Because I know there must be more
Chorus
Ohhh ohhh ohhh

THROW MY HEART AWAY

Shadows on the bedroom wall
Mem'ries that will never call
Look around and all I have is nothing without you
Photographs in broken frames
Dreams all going up in flames
Everything has come apart, I don't know what to do
Tell me I should hold on
Just tell me anything
'Cause the days are dark when you're gone
Won't you pull me back in

CHORUS:
Yeah we had something golden, now it's turned to shades of grey
Don't you throw, don't you throw my heart away
Now tomorrow is all shattered with remains of yesterday
Don't you throw, don't you throw my heart away

Staring at a setting sun
We want it all while we're still young
You need the world but I was happy hanging onto you
Voices have been haunting me
The ghost of you I swear won't leave
Alone with all this emptiness but that'll have to do
Why'd you slam the door on me
I'm locked inside this misery
Digging through the refuse searching for the key

CHORUS

Shadows on the bedroom wall
Memories that will never call
Everything has come apart, I don't know what to do

CHORUS
Yeah we had something golden, now it's turned to shades of grey
Don't you throw, don't you throw my heart away
Now tomorrow is all shattered with remains of yesterday
Don't you throw, don't you throw my heart away
Don't you throw, don't you throw my heart away
Don't you throw, don't you throw my heart away

SUPERHERO

Tell the world I'm ready
No one knows it's all a lie
Every day I keep pretending
It's been that way for a long long time
I wish I was different
Made of steel and unafraid
If I could only find the costume
Then I could end this whole charade

CHORUS:
I want to be a superhero
I wanna fly through my TV
Destroy the darkness hiding in the shadows
And fight the evil that I can't see
All my life I've been a number zero
Wishing I could be somebody else
I wanna be a superhero
So I can save me from myself

Help me I'm unraveled
Get me out of my own way
With every step I'm so pathetic
If I was cool I could save the day
Give me special powers
X-ray vision to look inside
I'd fix what's broke inside my head
And be the coolest thing alive

CHORUS

Someday I'll turn it all around
A thousand miles above the ground
You won't believe me when you see me
You'll be thinking – am I only dreaming

OVER FROM THE START

There's nothing left to keep me here
Nothing left to feel
A shattered memory fills this room
A pain that never heals
I wish that I could take it back
But how was I to know
Tomorrow gives no promises
There's nothing here to hold and it's over
Yeah it's over

CHORUS:
Now my world's been torn apart
Was it over from the start (over)
Alone I believed
Aren't you glad you're not me?
In the end we went too far
It was over from the start
Alone is when I bleed
Aren't you glad you're not me -
It's over --
It was over from the start

Why are things the way they are
I just don't understand
The past is rushing through my life
I'm left with empty hands
The silence here is deafening
There's no place that I can go
I wish I could have seen it coming
I guess you never know when it's over -- yeah it's over

CHORUS

Just hold on, hold on -- How was I to know
Just hold on, hold on -- It was over long ago
Just hold on, hold on -- I hate this place since you've been gone
Just hold on, hold on

CHORUS

I'M SORRY

We live in a little room in a little house
In a small town
And that's alright with me
But what holds me up just holds you back
'Cause you see a bigger world
That's full of possibilities
I didn't mean to play it safe
And rain on your parade

I was wrong, you were right
I can see the other side
Didn't mean to start a fight, I'm sorry

I was tired, half asleep
When you shared your dreams with me
And if it seems I don't believe. I'm sorry

You say the walls are closing in and you can't breathe
It's sink or swim
You need to spread your wings
Well I'm afraid of what you see, the way you think
That things could be
And what tomorrow brings
Sometimes when I think too much
I fall out of touch

I was wrong, you were right
I can see the other side
Didn't mean to start a fight, I'm sorry

I was tired, half asleep
When you shared your dreams with me
And if it seems I don't believe, I'm sorry
Yeah I'm sorry

I'm like a deer caught in the headlights
When the future looks so bright

You say the walls are closing in and you can't breathe
It's sink or swim
You need to spread your wings

I was wrong, you were right
I can see the other side
Didn't mean to start a fight, I'm sorry

I was tired, half asleep
When you shared your dreams with me
And if it seems I don't believe, I'm sorry

I was wrong, you were right
I can see the other side
Didn't mean to start a fight, I'm sorry

I was tired, half asleep
When you shared your dreams with me
And if it seems I don't believe
I'm sorry, yeah I'm sorry

I was tired, half asleep
When you shared your dreams with me
I was wrong, you were right, I'm sorry

We live in a little room in a little house
In a small town

Verse

I was thinking of some time together
You were thinking we were worlds apart
I was hoping we could fix the problem
But I didn't know where to start

You've been acting like a stranger
I could be just anyone
When you raise your defenses I know
You're not telling me anything

It's not so hard we can't change it
Look in your heart we can save it

Chorus

How can we lose if we try not to fight
If you give in to the lies you just might
Wake up tomorrow and find
That it's you and I, Alone

Verse

I keep waiting for an answer
Never knowing why this went wrong
Another second and it's gone forever
Another day of feeling all alone

It doesn't matter if we don't stop feeling
We should be happy that we got this far
All I want is something to believe in
But I never know where you are

It's not so hard we can't change it
Look in your heart we can save it

This ain't what it seems but then again what is?
I can't even see through you no more
The situation's changed now it don't feel the same
Maybe it is time for me to go

But please I beg you don't ask me to explain why

You shouldn't take it too hard
You shouldn't take it too hard
It's me I'm only falling apart
You shouldn't take it too hard
It's not your fault

I've got my hands tied they have been for a while
But I'm still holding on to what I know
It's only now I see that you're no good for me
And I'm going to turn my back on you

But please I beg you don't ask me to explain why

You shouldn't take it too hard
You shouldn't take it too hard
It's me I'm only falling apart
You shouldn't take it too hard
It's not your fault

This ain't what it seems but then again what is?
I can't even see through you no more
I've got my hands tied they have been for a while
But I'm still holding on to what I know

But please I beg you don't ask me to explain why

You shouldn't take it too hard
You shouldn't take it too hard
It's me I'm only falling apart

You shouldn't take it too hard
You shouldn't take it too hard
You shouldn't take it too hard
You shouldn't take it too hard

We sing
But don't always soar
But we stand
And we take the blows
We swing
And sometimes hit the floor
But we rise
And we march back for more
And we toil
Just like anyone
And our hearts are bruised
But still we go

We go no matter how far
We go no matter how hard
We go with our hearts
And we go like it's the last time we'll run

And we go dead ahead
Even in our darkest days
Even when we're full
We conjure up a hunger pain
Even with a no
We spin it 'til it rolls our way
Even when our heads
Are reeling from a heartache
Even when a foe
Is standing in our pathway
Even when they all
Say we're going the wrong way
We look to our souls
And we know
Yes we know

Time to breathe it out
I can see what is here, a shipwrecked memory
There's no one to throw me a line
And it's alright if you're the last I ever see

Light and weightless now
The old ship is sinking, can't go around and around
I was drowning in the tears, I'd floated through the years
And somehow, this river runs home tonight

Too weak from holding on, gonna float awhile
You've already thrown me a line
To a shoreline I could never leave

Light and weightless now
The old ship is sinking, can't go around and around
I was drowning in the tears, I'd floated through the years
And somehow, this river runs home tonight

Light and weightless now
The old ship is sinking, can't go around and around
I was drowning in the tears, I'd floated through the years
And somehow, this river runs home tonight

Light and weightless now
The old ship is sinking, can't go around and around
I was drowning in the tears, I'd floated through the years
And somehow, this river runs home tonight

You don't have to say
What is on your mind
'Cos I already know
Yeah, I already know
You're like an open book to me
You're like an open book to me

I know you better than anybody else
I know you better than you know yourself
And I know that you want me, honey
Oh yeah

You don't have to try
To be someone you're not
'Cos I'm already sold
On the one I've got
I need nothing more than you
I need nothing more than you, oh no

You know me better than anybody else
You know me better than I know myself
And you know that I want you, honey

We ain't got nothing to hide from each other
There's nothing but our hearts on our sleeves
It's always so easy
It's always so easy
With you and me

I know you better than anybody else
I know you better than you know yourself
And I know that you want me, honey
You know me better than anybody else
You know me better than I know myself
And you know that I want you, honey

We ain't got nothing to hide from each other
There's nothing but our hearts on our sleeves
It's always so easy
It's always so easy
With you and me, oh yeah
With you and me, oh yeah
With you and me, oh yeah
With you and me, oh yeah